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Living A Lie (Part One)
In your early adult years, you think that you know it all. Well that’s how I was looking back on my life.
Nearly nineteen-years later, it’s true what they say, you always learn by your mistakes, mistakes make you into a stronger person. Boy, did I make a hell of a lot of mistakes.
I never thought that my life would turn out the way that it did. There are only four things that I would never regret, my four beautiful children. They were, and still are, my saving grace, my redemption of sorts. When the darkness became too much, thoughts of them would pull me into the light.
This is my story, it’s not a story that is all sweetness and light. It’s a story of love, regret, devastation, darkness and maybe a little redemption.
So here we are, I shall start from the beginning.
Part One
***Disclaimer- Some of the content in this book can cause triggers for some. Also, contains profanity, erotic scenes and only suitable for readers 18+***
Darkness Surrounds
Living A Lie (Part Two)
Darkness surrounds me, a dreary, cold, place with no escape.
Feeling lost, alone and confused I’m sucked deep into my own mind.
A place I soon became comfortable in, a place where I can hide.
The darkness becomes my respite, my shelter.
A buffer from the devastation of my own broken dreams.
Trapped in my own mind I search in circles for
answers.
Surviving but not living, my heart bleeding and broken from my loss.
Torn up by guilt, thoughts of being punished for some perceived fault.
Confusion and turmoil become my only companions.
I need to start living again they tell me - but could I?
Do I have the strength to crawl my way out of my own mind?
Then again, do I really want to?
If I do escape the void will I still be me and if not, can I accept the person I’ve become?
Follow my journey in part two of my Living A Lie Series.
**BE WARNED: Some descriptions are vivid and can be a trigger for sensitive readers.
**Graphic
**Sexual Content
**Language
**Suitable for ages 18 and over
Living A Lie Series Box Set
Part One & Two
This is my no holds barred story, the truth in all its gory details. It’s certainly not a romance, although, it had its moments.
My life didn’t turn out how I envisioned it, but looking back I can’t say I regret it either, and I’ll explain the reason, or reasons for that in my story.
It all went wrong when I was seventeen-years-old. However, it wasn’t all a picnic up to that point either. Well, nearly nineteen-years later and I can tell you, it’s true what they say, you learn by your mistakes, and boy, I made a lot of them.
I was pulled through the ringer, and left feeling lost, alone and confused. So much so, that I’m sucked deep into my own mind. Lost inside my own mind I became comfortable, it was a place that I could hide. The darkness inside my own mind became my respite, my shelter and a buffer from the devastation of my own broken dreams. I became trapped there as I searched in circles for answers, surviving but not living. I was torn up by guilt, and felt as though I was being punished for perceived faults. Confusion and turmoil became my only companions.
I needed to escape, to start living again, but did I have the strength to crawl out, and escape the void? Better yet, did I want to, because if I did, would I still recognise myself?
Travel with me through my earlier life. It may make you uncomfortable as I bluntly describe that time for you, but it’s a form of therapy for me. Whenever memories of my past become too much for me, I now have something to hold onto; my four children.
When the darkness becomes too much, thoughts of them pull me into the light. They were, and still are, my saving grace, my redemption of sorts.
**BE WARNED: Some descriptions are vivid and can be a trigger for sensitive readers.
**Graphic
**Sexual Content
**Language
**Suitable for ages 18 and over